Everywhere I go
For everywhere I go, in place of my handbag, may it be your word
In place of sweet thoughts, may it be thoughts about you
Just as humble Naomi spoke of you to her heathen daughters
May I always speak of you to everyone
Unlike Naomi, may I never leave your path
But stay on it forever
And just like Ruth, may my words be, wherever you go, I go.. May I cleave to your word like a lifeline, never ever letting go.
God's word for you today
''For I will restore health to you and heal you of your wounds, says the LORD'' -Jeremiah 30:17a
When our hope is in the Lord and all we do is trust Him in everything, he'll bring his word to pass in our life. I pray this makes you smile today. God bless you!
Why am I a Christian?
This question is very vital in every Christian life. Some people are Christians because they were born Christian but I am a Christian because I have been and still I'm saved by Grace. The story of my life and his divine touch in my life has brought me down to my knees in appreciation and worship of his awesomeness.
Although born a Christian, I always asked myself why we had to do certain things. I was born and bred in one of these old churches known as the fundamentalists founded by Florence Crawford (Apostolic Faith Mission).. This church has been since 1907, it birthed from the 1906 Azusa street revival organised by William J. Seymour. I loved how my church was so historian - kind of a vintage feel but I never understood why my church was so different compared to all other churches in Africa (back then).
We all did everything different while normal black churches were up and going, very up beat etc. I felt restricted especially as a growing teen and worse, my parents won't have me 'misbehave' (in their terms). I did what they wanted me to do just to please them. The time came for me to leave home, I left far away.. I went across ocean and came to live in England. Then I truly understood why I am a Christian. I wasn't much of a Christian though, I should say my parents did a good job in bringing me up so I had good morals but that was no where near Christianity. I saw myself doing things I shouldn't be doing but the day came when God spoke to me.
When God speaks to you, his voice is clear and distinct. It can't be denied, you'll know of a truth God has caught up with you. That was what he did. He spoke to me in such a manner that no one else could. He said: "Do you love the world more than me?" I knew in my heart of hearts I didn't love God as much as expected. He'd done soooo much for me to walk out of his life. He was just too much for me to deny him. He had calmed so many storms in my life, he'd been there for my family, for me and he was still there for me in my Sin.
I had to give it up to him.
The peace afterwards was overwhelming. It was not a perfect moment after I returned to God but I tell you, There's a peace that comes into your heart and lives with you at all times, that peace, you can never get from anyone else but God.
I can boldly say I am a Christian by Grace*Watch out for the novel about my walk with God.. The complete story coming soon! with others included*
Some inspiration for you
When you are hurt...
I defo need God's grace to carry on. Oh, I felt like watching a film and I remembered "Sound of Music" I love the songs and I've been playing the scenes in my head even before seeing it. Lol. You know when you like a movie or film (you replay the scenes, the songs and you just remember all the funny bits and the interesting scenes you just can't stop watching) that's the way I felt watching it again. Just like yesterday, when I was a little girl and watching those kids sing, now an adult and one day will have my own kids (I pray not seven though).
I'm really trying not to think about this whole episode of Monday that got me really upset. I've never felt so disappointed, betrayed and hurt before. It's so sad and disappointing when those who you didn't expect that much hurt to come from eventually hurt you.
Lessons learnt: Never expect too much from people, they'll never cease to disappoint you.. It's best you underestimate people for them to surprise you than for you to overestimate their worth and they throw it in your face.
Been in the Realm
He reminded me he was there.
I had a chat with someone really close and that person hurt me so deeply. The words they said of me, I never felt so offended in my life that I cried through the night. I was prettty useless to myself the following day.
Went into Uni to do some work and I couldn't concentrate, although the person called earlier to apologise and suggested we meet to talk but sincerely speaking, I don't want to talk about it.
I am human and it's right to get offended but as a Christian, I have to forgive because if I harbour it, it becomes hatred and that may give that person power over me. Yes! Power.. When you hate someone, that person changes your mood whenever you see them, meaning they've the power over you. If they succeed in changing your mood, they've succeeded in controlling a part of you.
So Yes, I forgive that person but forgetting it is something that will need Grace.
There's a saying that everything happens for a reason. I o believe that.
In the wake of this 'anger-event', I got closer to God. God is my best friend, my teacher, my father, my sibling, my mother, my lover and everything. He is the only one who never lets me down! I had to rekindle and strengthen my sweet fellowship with my BFF and like always he was there to listen.
I began preparing myself for my future husband. There is the saying, if you want someone to behave in a certain manner, you hav to first work on yourself ( okay, maybe ht came from me) but yeah, I am beginning to learn of the bible women. What did they do differently, what did they have tat I don't? What qualifies them to be so special? How did they succeed as women of faith?
My Journey starts with Ruth (you probably thinking why not Sarah? I'll come to her later).
Yesterday was Ruth chapter 1, I read that after my devotion and it was so spirit filled. I prayed, prayed and gave God thanks for his word.
I'll share some of Ruth 1 notes with you later.
For now, remain blessed!
Can't you see I love you?
Do you know?
I've been smiling but sad within (I am so good at that but it Kills!) I've been more to myself lately due to these events and the devil keeps bringing up stuff in my head to make me more downcast. Sitting at work and so tired, I sent my best friend from church an email.. I was saying to her that, I know I want a change of job or a better role but I can't take this anymore from my current situation at work. Something caught me and I knew I'm complaining. Complaining about God's gift?
I had to pray to Dear Heavenly Father to forgive because it is wrong to ask God for a gift and when we get it, we begin to say it is not good enough but that was our request.
Oh God help! I feel so sleepy right now and can't type any more. I just thought to share that with you. It's about the close of work. Praise God! I'll save this sleep for another hour.
Things that easily beset Us
You know the bible verse that says God uses the weak things of this world to confirm the wise??? I don't know if this is the perfect verse for what I'm about to say: I returned home this evening kind of in low spirit and was in no mood to talk.. I noticed my flatmates had some visitors and I just went into my room and short the door but I was hungry.. So I told myself I'd angrily go to the Kitchen to get some food but God stopped me and asked me to pray.. I did! I got to the sitting room and a little girl accompanied her Dad to see my flatmates.. My flatmate is about to have a baby and she was in her early stage of contraction. The little girl stopped me and said Hello, then she said "auntie is having a baby" I was forced into a conversation that got me smiling. Finally she said "and that's my baby".. I laughed and said Yes. Now, I'm a lot better! thank God I prayed and thank God for that little muslim child.
About some weeks ago I felt I didn't know my stand with God anymore, I was angry at the world and angry with everything... I cried often and was depressed. I realised I needed to be straight with God to get that happiness and peace. When that happened, life couldn't be any worse.. but I smiled through it (although I did cry at some point but Hey, I realised what??? That's what the devil wishes for me.. I'll keep praying and smiling through the storm).
I felt God had so much pity for me.. He looked down in mercy and helped is beloved daughter out of all her problems. I am smiling all the time now, whether I'm offended or not (infact, I barely get offended these days). God has been awesomely good!!! He's worked with me through my difficult tasks and made me see every reason of every day to smile with him (did I say that??) I am excited boy!
Well, you might want to join me in Cloud 9 too!! Bless you.
Condolence to my Country
Yes! I am Nigerian and don't you shake your head in pity for me because I love my country. We do have some issues true, but there's no country without issues. The sad news about Nigeria is that we Nigerians are outspoken so you always get to hear our stories while other countries like little Britain and show-off America just keep the dirty stuff far away from the other parts of the world or they make it sound it's not their fault.
Please do me a favour and tell the Indians to stay away from my country. Who asked them to come manage the airline or own one in Nigeria?? See, my problem with Nigerians:: Stop feeling inferior! we can do better than most countries or race; we are Smart! did you all feel Indians can run it better than Nigerians??? See the end result. Faulty plane, pilot said no to the flight and so did the station manager but annoying and greedy Indians said Yes!! fly!! the plane can handle it. Now we've lost 153 people and even more where the crash happened. I am so disgusted right now and so sad too. God please have mercy on my dear country, it's time for you to listen and hear our cry.
Please dear God!!
The coolest thing is that, his baby is a Girl and she was also born in the Morning. Although, I didn't go through the process of having her and I'm not her biological Mum but Man, that girl is my little baby girl before I finally have mine. I hear she is gorgeous too.. she defo took after me then (Lol).
I am very grateful to God for this gift of life. May God bless and keep my little angel - (I won't give out her name yet.. the naming ceremony hasn't been done.. she's Nigerian).