Not until I read a convo yesterday, I didn't know I had this pain in my heart for so long. I'm beginning to think, "what can I do?" Btw, it is 3am in London with the autumn wind breezing through my walls somehow. I can't sleep. I worry. But hey, why worry when you can worship? Is what's in my heart right now. So I need to get cracking on my work (got a client's job hanging) then I'll figure out the rest. Did I just say "I'll figure?" No! God will! It's the Lord's day, and I'm going right on so blessed. I'll walk straight to the altar and make my request known to God after praises that is. 

I will not give in to this hurt even when my eye is heavy and raindrops of tears are just near my tear ducts, I won't give the devil another reason to smile or laugh. God has got me.

That goes for you too reader. God has got you! Don't give in to what the devil is saying. "You can go through this victorious!" Got to run now as three minutes has just been spent without planning for it. God bless you as you worship in his presence.

Lord I am beyond words

My throat close tight 

But the praises folds,

Right in to reach your might

I am lost for lyrics

That will kick in praise

When I almost kicked bricks

You pulled me thru' in praise

I am greatly awed at you

Your majesty you show forth,

In my life that's not without you

I bring the praise bursting forth

I won't say I'm in the best of moods now to do this
But what I've got to tell you is that it is essential to try to make someone smile... Recently, peeps have been coming to meet me for advice (excuse my short form) and seriously speaking, I do not know what to say.. Then I turn to the Lord to guide me, sometimes he makes me speak and other times he makes me smile at the person, give a warm big hug and say these words "I'm praying for you" (of course I really do). Surprisingly, it works and what do I do? Smile even more...

I don't know how many are big pretenders but I'm one (yes, I just said it).. I pretend to have the best life when deep down I need a HELP. I do not know how to show that I'm so sad even when I am. Like right now, tears are just streaming down but as usual I smile and write (my best moment for thinking). In everything I give God praise.

Lesson of this whole episode is to SMILE no matter what is going on right now, SMILE because There'll be a light at the end of THIS tunnel. You won't keep going through it because God said, HE won't give us more than we can bear.
I encourage you brother/sister, help another lighten their load and others will help you too with just a SMILE. We are in this together and YOU are NOT FORGOTTEN. :)