You know those statements that get you thinking straight? They are mostly very short sentences. 

I got one through Facebook today and it was like 'wow'. I quickly put a mental note on.

It said: how long will you let pain keep you from being happy. 

I'm not sure it was said that way though, this is the British version of the American English lol.

Anyway, I got thinking. And I'm so praying that the pain I may have in my heart do not rub off on others

I want people around me to be happy and not follow suit in my inner sadness. I call it inner sadness

Because I am not externally sad, people can't see it even if I tell it. I only know it and feel it and keep it, 

Those who are closest to me however, can feel my pain too and those are the people I am more 

Concerned about. 

So yeah, it's time to LET GO AND LET GOD. If you are like me, I'll advice you to do same. 

Let it go to the cross and you'll be rejoicing everyday. I am going to go on a retreat for this because 

I need help and that help comes only from the Man up there. I know by the time it's done, I'll be smiling. I don't 

Know when this will be but it sure will be done soon enough. I encourage you to do same. 

I'll try to share all I'll be doing on my retreat, I am not promising this though because I may forget. :)

GOD BLESS YOU

..by the person you love; it hits you more than anything else. I've been pretty useless throughout today and tomorrow is a busy day for me. I should be preparing for tomorrow, but I can't. I'm ill suffering from chest pain. How terrible can this be?

I defo need God's grace to carry on. Oh, I felt like watching a film and I remembered "Sound of Music" I love the songs and I've been playing the scenes in my head even before seeing it. Lol. You know when you like a movie or film (you replay the scenes, the songs and you just remember all the funny bits and the interesting scenes you just can't stop watching) that's the way I felt watching it again. Just like yesterday, when I was a little girl and watching those kids sing, now an adult and one day will have my own kids (I pray not seven though).
I'm really trying not to think about this whole episode of Monday that got me really upset. I've never felt so disappointed, betrayed and hurt before. It's so sad and disappointing when those who you didn't expect that much hurt to come from eventually hurt you.

Lessons learnt: Never expect too much from people, they'll never cease to disappoint you.. It's best you underestimate people for them to surprise you than for you to overestimate their worth and they throw it in your face.